#00186: Memories

I ran away form Jordan because I got so scared I broke down and started crying – just like any 27-year old would do. It’s embarrassing to admit that I’m allowing my feelings to control me. The first thing I did when I arrived home is take a huge dose of pills. It kicked in a couple of hours later. That’s when I was able to start talking normally. The crying spells stopped. The fear dissipated. The anxieties went away. The voices []

#00190: January 2017 update

I wrote this update a few days ago. I had just gone back to Jordan after a 2-week hiatus from any sort of binge. I’m too ashamed of myself. I’m not even sure why I’m posting this. I’m writing this for a future me. Whether or not you can remember this period, I’m not going to remind you. first 13 days (exams and binges) (31st Dec 2016 – 13th Jan 2017) -Detailing the details of the details. Sharp focus. A new favorite drug? []

#00189: 2017

Fresh start. I hope anyone and especially everyone to have a wonderful new year. Resolutions? Plans? Projects? Ideas? . . . . Anything. []

#00186: Memories

I ran away form Jordan because I got so scared I broke down and started crying – just like any 27-year old would do. It’s embarrassing to admit that I’m allowing my feelings to control me. The first thing I did when I arrived home is take a huge dose of pills. It kicked in a couple of hours later. That’s when I was able to start talking normally. The crying spells stopped. The fear dissipated. The anxieties went away. The voices []