This is an update on my Cold Turkey post.
Dear Future Me,
I’m writing you this post from a past you never thought was possible. Your only current addiction is Nicotine, and let me tell you, I’d rather have you as a chain smoker than a drug abuser.
The past 4 weeks have been incredible. You laugh everyday. You smile most of the time. You’ve been going to the gym regardless of the result – and in turn, you’ve been getting results. You rarely take things too seriously, and if you did, you step back and remind yourself of how silly everything and everyone is.
Your current positivity and general attitude towards life might as well be temporary – everything is temporary. That doesn’t mean giving everything up.
It’s the first time in my life where I prefer reality over a temporary high. I’m genuinely more interested in what life has than what’s in my head.
Anyways, I just wanted to give you a few updates:
– I’m off all medications/drugs (Nicotine is my only companion. For now.)
– I’ve been more active and more open to new experiences.
– I sometimes literally LOL at my past (instead of the usual shame/regret). I still struggle, but I’m not fighting off any demons.
– It has really been an amazing period of my life.
I wrote this update because I’m going on a quick trip very soon to see my wife. The last I was there, I came back contemplating suicide. This time, I’m more open to whatever life throws at me.
You on July 5 2016.