Tough decisions are called tough for a reason. They’re not easy to make. The ethical variables are vague and it is impossible to know if they’re the right move to make or not – perhaps even debateable for eternity.
But perhaps they’re essential. Vital. A must-be-done.
I went to the lawers office today to discuss my busines situation. After an hour, we already established a plan.
I then proceeded to contact my ex-bsuiness partner. His phone was disconnected. I left him a WhatsApp message.
A few minutes ago, I got a reply.
I asked him if we could meet to settle everything and move on.
He told me his phone is disconnected because he can’t afford to pay for it.
He also informed me that he separated from his wife. His family situation is affecting him and he needs someone to vent to.
I tried to be as diplomatic as possible with my answers, and we agreed to meet tomorrow.
And that’s when I almost dropped my decision to press charges. My emotions and feelings took over me for a few seconds. I even told my mom that it now seems “wrong” to go through with litigation.
And that’s why I’m finding it hard to make the tough decision: I must go through with the plan.
Not a single emotional cell in my body agrees with the decision, and that’s why I know I must do it.
It’s not personal. I’m not spiteful.
This is not revenge anymore.
This is pure business.
What am I expecting out of this?, my emotional side is asking. Why cause this man more pain when the money is now gone and it would only put more strain and pressure on that man’s life?
I’m expecting a mature, legal form of closure.
I don’t want to carry a grudge for the rest of my life.
I don’t want the regrets of not doing something about it when I had the opportunity.
I’m only asking for what’s mine.
Dear future me,
what are your current thoughts when you look back at this day; this moment that you’ve decided to make a tough decision?
Do you still consider it tough? Was it harsh but necessary? Or was it also an emotional decision wrapped in so-called “seeking justice”?
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