#00210: June 11 2017 – 1/39

I did not plan on doing what I’m about to to because there is 99.999999% chance of failure. I went to the gym today. I also had vegetables – something I haven’t had in a very long time. I did not binge. I repeat: I DID NOT BINGE. I picked up a book and I read for some time. I repeat: I STARTED READING A BOOK. Gym. Reading. Not bingeing. I wanted to use this blog – this platform – as my []

#00208: Attempts, systems and mood

I like lists. I enjoy writing down things to do and crossing out things that have been done. I like to organize my life using timetables and countdowns. When my mood isn’t down, lists and categories carry a sense of purpose i.e. a reason to wake up and get out of bed just to cross them out. But that’s only when my mood is up. Early 2012, I began dealing with numerous numbers of therapists and psychiatrists. I was reluctant to open up to []

#00207: 2 years

I’ve been in my room for over a week. I do not have the energy to even talk to someone, let alone answer their questions. I’ve been mostly in bed. Netflix and pills? The pills got me out of bed and into the real world. I managed to see my baby girl. She’s the only thing in the entire universe that can put a smile on my face no matter what mood I’m going through. Bipolar? Depression? Anxiety? Mood disorder? Pull out []